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Thursday, February 28, 2013

Losing my way...


Falling apart,
Piece by piece,
Crumbling into earth,
Facing disintegration...

On the verge of extinction, 
Realizing my deception, 
Recognizing the contradictions,
With the floor crumbling before me...

Wasting away,
Wasting my own time,
What am I doing?
What is this life?

A lack of intimacy,
The lack of a decent movie,
Hearing music play in the background,
Filling this void within me...

Far from my brothers,
Far from my sisters,
Immersed in a boiling drama,
Dissolving into transparency...

I lost my way,
For a simple second,
Noticed by all,
To a point of sympathy...

I am human,
So I fell!
I fell apart...
But I'm standing up again,
Against the wind,
Against the cold,
So...
Bring it on, Life!
Bring it on....


By Yoshith PERERA


Sunday, February 10, 2013

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

























Sorry about the late wishes everyone, but better late than never... And let the year of the snake begin....

Saturday, February 09, 2013

STRESSSS!!!

                              What happens when you're unexpectedly dumped on with stress?? It actually has a massive crappy effect on our lives!! Whether it's the boss at work, the parents at home or worse the step-mums and step-dads of the world. One thing is certain and that is... No one has the right to make you feel uncomfortable like that for no apparent reason. Sometimes of course there is a reason and an apology is required but then again they can't dump all that stress on you!! Just because someone has a bad day, maybe because their spouse is being an asshole or the boss upstairs is giving them hell about productivity, YOU DON'T have to be the recipient of such negative energy...


       In most cases;
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent"
              - Eleanor Roosevelt, the diplomat and former First Lady.
       There maybe exceptions to this statement, but if you've got the truth on your side and your will is strong, no one could ever make you feel inferior!

Over the years, I have been the recipient of a lot CRAP during the DAY!!!!!
P!NK says it best in the chorus of her 2012 single "Blow Me (One Last Kiss)..." The song actually helps me a lot!! Cranked up really LOUD and singing at the top of your lungs help!!!

"Just when it can't get worse, I've had a shit day (No!)Have you had a shit day? (No!), we've had a shit day (No!)I think that life's too short for this, I want back my ignorance and blissI think I've had enough of this, blow me one last kiss"


                          Over the years, I've learnt other ways to deal with these surprise shit bombs!! Seriously, they can really dampen up your mood, especially when you were having an awesome day in the first place.
Sometimes I pick up a pillow and scream in to it while I slightly smother myself! Obviously I'm screaming profanity and the point of the pillow is to make the words barely audible and recognizable to the human ear. Remember to come up for air though! I always DO! Never EVER bottle it up!! It's just gonna make your day worse and you might unexpectedly expel that at someone else. Who clearly does NOT deserve it.
                    The best way to deal with it, in my experience is to dream! Day dream!!! Picture a life where you don't have any stress and you're living the dream. Your dream job and dream house, living there!! Calm, free from stress maybe just for those few minutes, it's something to look forward to... The future is made up of your dreams so long as you're willing to fight for them!



   


 Stress is a part of all of our lives, it's hard to imagine a world without it, simply because the good must always be balanced out by the bad... So just be happy that you woke up today.. Be thankful for what you have, not what you don't... See the sky differently, enjoy the sunlight on your face, and be grateful for the joy you have, however little it may seem....

"BE RESPONSIBLE 4 YOUR DAY!!"

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I'm JUST so HAPPY!!!

 


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This Valentine's DAY... 2013

This Valentine's day... As the demand for red roses sky rocket, and the kissing disease & cold sores claim their highest annual toll in victims, Cupid continues to fly around the world snagging more people for TEAM LOVE. "Cynical much?" "Nahhh! Just my point of view for the day." As he pierces the hearts of his unknowing victims behind their back, he continues to cross all sorts of boundaries...


Sometimes he forgets to calibrate his arrows and the consequences can be quite disastrous 


As the days draw closer to the big day, love starts to sprout in the most ridiculous places...

 

But like I said, too much of anything can turn either 
1.violent...



2. Or I choose to say "Interesting".


    Cupid also likes to make things a little interesting.... Once in a while he sneaks in to the most unassuming places of V day traffic... THE CLINIC!!!

Happy venereal D day!! :P :D

Even the ZOO isn't safe!!

 

   The angel of love isn't all that bad really, he tries to keep the married couples a little sane too... But as clumsy as he is, he ends up shooting the sexy secretary at the husband's office...What do you expect??? A lil bit of RED all over...


As long as he's preoccupied with all that romantic stuff, friends can peacefully get together and play...


But even friends can get carried away at times...





"Dude!!! You HIT me in the sac!!!"












So as love continues to grow in the world...


In whatever way LOVE does...

And to all those love struck teens and adults, please keep the public displays of affection to a minimum... We know "the love" is making all of you fart butterflies and what not...
So try not to make it nauseatingly unbearable...
For us single folk

On the other hand I'm just hoping Cupid stays above ground and doesn't meddle around elsewhere...


**5 Days to VDAY ppl!!!!**

(Pictures were taken off Google, none of them are mine. But some brilliant photographers for sure!!!)

Thursday, February 07, 2013

Sorry...




We mean the word,
We say the word,
Its hard to say, this single word,
&  even harder to show...
Not cause you might feel inferior,
But because its simply scary to be so open,
The last thing on my mind was to hurt you,
The one thing on my mind was my loneliness,
On a day to be with family, A family not by blood,
But pure at heart and full of love,
I picked you...
Life might be vast, with it's mistakes and perfections,
Each of those with a flaw of its own,
Not so perfect, when you think about it...
Love carries a river, Clear and strong,
Calm when damned,
Savage when released...
Intention's are fogged often with thought,
If you look closely, its really easy,
Easy to see, the honesty...
Cause every action holds a meaning,
Without explanations but often clear with reason...
Its hard to capture any emotion,
Cause nothing holds still, even for a second,
So i cannot defend my intention, nor can i clear this mist,
That clouds the definable truth,
All i can do is show you, if u let me,
The meaning...
Even when there was none, 
Better yet the truth,
Not of being sorry... 
But loving someone enough,
Enough to say it...
Simply that...
The least selfish thing we have to give....

By Yoshith Perera
Written on the 14th of April 2008

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

Face value...

         

       As human beings, loneliness continues to haunt the multitude of people. To be honest, even I feel that at times. But single life is really nothing to be afraid of. Considering the constant stream of work, friends and volunteering that I've got piled up in my life, I'm happy. Not to mention my love of music and the MOVIES!! If one can find happiness by oneself, then they can truly find happiness with another. And with so much happening in our lives how do we even find the time to meet people? Well one way or the other when we do find ourselves on a date, the fireworks do vary!

I was listening to this while I wrote this post... It put me in the right mood... If you like "The Saturdays" listen while you read...


    Some dates feel amazing with great chemistry, others come across less amazing in comparison. It's human to compare and in fact it's logical. If you're looking to end up with someone, it would only make sense to find that one person you could rant with all day. So why did I bring up the concept of face value in this post?

        When we like someone, we invest in them emotionally. It's almost like we sync with their iTunes app. But that's only if they like us back the same way. What if they don't like us the same way? What if they are confused or just screwed up in general? What if we are investing in a bowl of crap, that's just waiting to hit us in the face on our way out? Well that's definitely a lot of "What if's" and no man or woman on earth could ever fathom every possible outcome in these situations...

        I've been in this situation countless times! It happens when you're a hopeless romantic and have a tendency to wear your heart on your sleeve. Regardless I'm no saint, I've probably done the same thing to another unknowing innocent. Why? I don't know... Maybe cause I was burnt the first time, or possibly because I wasn't really ready or just plain insane... So what exactly is the clue to maybe not get heartbroken as much?

      Take things at FACE VALUE my friends! What a person says and does, doesn't carry completely different meanings or alternate twisted thoughts.... Perhaps in that one in a million exception but not most of the time... If they don't call you soon after the first date, they probably aren't invested as they should be. If something is meant to be, it will be. Stop thinking of scenarios why they didn't call! You don't have to stick around at home waiting for the phone to ring or get a text message from them. If they want to be "just friends", it means they only want to be your friend! Only FRIENDSHIP is on the table. Life is way too short to be wondering about someone whose definitely not worth your TIME!

     The reason why we don't get the message across so vividly is because most people don't want to hurt another person. But it ends up hurting someone way more... As Homo sapiens we want love, we want that feeling that makes one feel like they are home... "Feeling complete" and all that corny stuff... Exactly where they are suppose to be... We can't really blame someone else for our expectations, can we? Miscommunication is a direct result of the lack of "GUTS" and honesty... Think of it this way... If you truly like someone and think of them in the long run... How would you treat them? "The Answer" to that question is what YOU should be looking for... It's definitely not easy! But will be worth it? WHAT IF you never tried?

"Every time I thought I'd never find a love like ours, I've been proven wrong... But only cause I gave somebody else a chance..."
- Yoshith Perera 

Something I found...


"Time is what we want most but what we use worst."
- William Penn


Tuesday, February 05, 2013

P!NK - Just Give Me a Reason...




There's something about this video that i just LOVE!!!! There's definitely a past I could relate it too...

Monday, February 04, 2013

Lost

This is my attempt at writing a short story for a course I'm currently enrolled in... Your thoughts and insight in to the story are most welcome...

“Promise me that you will love her?”
He couldn’t speak for his grief had paralysed his tongue still. There were only tears as he tried to keep his eyes wide open as he took mental snap shots of the few moments he had left with her. He finally nodded to her plea.
“Promise me Scott! Promise me! I want to hear you say it!”
“I promise, Mohini...”
“You and this baby are most important people to ever come in to my life. I love you so much! Nothing can ever change that.”
“I know... I love you too...”
 Barely able to keep her eyes open, Mohini started to close her eyes. Every breath she took thereafter became shallower and more laboured. Her grip of Scott’s hand was losing vigour but Scott held her hand tighter with every passing second. As an eerie silence crept into the room, her skin grew pale with pallor under the moon light from the window just above the head of the bed. He kept staring at her face, wiping off tears she had cried while mumbling words of comfort in her ear.
The doctor walked in with an awkward stance, knowing of the dilemma he was about to face.
“Mr Richards? We need to do some paper work and... We need to move Mrs Richards from this room.” He uttered these words with much fear as he was young and the only physician for miles in the rural town of Trinco. As Scott turned to address him, he noticed a soupcon of shame in his face. It was clear to him that he was only an intern. With the two nurses at his aid, there was only so much that he could have done. He didn’t understand why he wasn’t angry with the staff or why he felt so numb.
“What time is it?” he asked the man wearing the white coat, who was shivering with guilt as he started to tear. Scott could see that he was simply not capable enough to deal with his situation.
“It’s been 5 hours since... Mrs Richards... passed away...” stammered the medical intern, he appeared as distort as Scott, as it was evident that it was his first unaccompanied experience with death. Scott stood up from the chair as it screeched and kissed Mohini’s forehead. At that moment there were only tears, his eyes closed for what seemed to him like seconds, lasted minutes. Her hand was no longer a fugitive of his. Scott turned away and walked out of the room, denying his urge to turn back and embrace his wife. He found a chair by the corridor where the lights flickered possibly due to the bad condition of the clinic itself. By the dark corridor, Scott found himself completely broken. He felt an intense emptiness in his gut, with so much pain. He knew not where it was coming from but he was aching for the one person, he would never feel again. As he sat in the crippled chair, with his legs up against his chest and his face immersed against his thighs there continued to be only silence. Enraged for a moment, he threw himself back against the wall, hammering his occiput against the crumbling partition.
Sobs were starting to fill the stillness and he embraced himself in a fetal position, as he tried to console himself by rocking himself to a potential peace. Footsteps had suddenly sneaked up on him from the aisle, it was the midwife who aided in the delivery of his child. As Scott looked up, he saw a bundle of blue cloth cradled against the women.
“Sir, would you like to hold your baby?”
Emerging from beneath his fingers, barely clearing his nostrils he glanced at the women and said “What!?” in a rather loud irritable tone. She was barely able to comprehend him, his voice muffled by his blocked nose due to the tears.
“Sir, this is Baby Richards. We are ready to discharge her to you...”
“Ok” is all he said. As the baby was placed in his arms, there was barely any emotion painted on his face. He stared at her for a while before a single tear trickled down his cheek. He finally got up and started to walk towards the exit of the clinic. He placed his baby in the infant seat of his car while he had constant flashbacks of how he and Mohini picked up baby furniture. For a moment there was a hope of a smile on his face. As he sat down in his car and started the engine, all he could think of is how to deal with the future. He finally began to drive home with little passion for what could be. He stared at the road while driving, but ever so consumed with so much thought. He thought of all the things that meant so much to him, back home. All the things that would remind him of her and the life they planned on living.
To his dismay, he ran a red light at the intersection and suddenly all he saw was bright lights engaging him from the rear. The car was thrown off the street to be entwined around a light post and for only a minute were there mourns, sounds of a crying baby and barely audible pleas for help. Within moments there was stillness, all life that was in the car was no more. Only smoke escaped the rubble that seemed to gush out blood steadily to form a pool on the graveled road.
The truck involved in the accident didn’t stop to aid the passengers of the car. A middle aged driver who reeked of beer and cigar smoke woke up from his half drunk slumber at that very moment of the accident. The adrenaline didn’t make him think clearly and he was far from making any sound decisions. He could feel his heart beat violently, almost like it needed to escape his chest. Afraid of the repercussions he continued to drive, unknowing of the grave consequence he was about to face as a result.
A few miles ahead of the truck, a woman emerges from the woods surrounding the poorly lit up road. Dressed in white and hair so long and dark, she seemed peacefully at bliss. But she was pale as if all her blood was drained out of her slender body. And she was holding a baby in her arms who was as quiet and motionless as a plastic doll.
She whispered to the baby, “Don’t worry sweetie, you’re going to be just fine. Soon you, your Daddy and I are going to be very happy together.”
Within seconds the trucker approached in his partly bruised truck. The headlights were not structurally intact and scarcely glimmered any light. He could barely see the road and as he approached the woman holding the neonate. He saw her in the middle of the road taking little notice of the truck racing toward her. With little time to react, he hit the brakes so hard that the truck almost toppled and only came to rest in front of her with mere inches to spare. He found his foot partly bruised against the brake pedal due to this endeavor. It only then came to his attention of the bruise on his forehead from the accident that occurred moments ago. He was distort, especially after the accident and still afraid of the consequences of the hit and run. After stopping the truck, he immediately got out of the vehicle to see if the lady was alright. As he opened his door, the woman just stood there in front of his door.
“I need to get to the hospital right away, my baby is not breathing... She’s not breathing!”
“Ok ok ma’am! Get in, I’ll take you to the closest one!”
They got into the truck and he immediately started driving toward the nearest clinic which would unfortunately take him back to the site of the accident.  Maybe it was his heightened senses but the bloke became suspicious of the young woman. She was no longer anxious or worried, as if all she wanted to do was just get into the truck. She kept rocking her baby to sleep, comforting her with a lullaby...
“So ma’am, is your baby alright now?”
“NOOOOO!” she screamed in a hollow voice. Her words were loud and cold, he felt frozen in his seat, afraid of what she might do next. She no longer seemed as brittle as she initially did, she seemed calm yet engaged with much hatred and anger. Attempting to take the conversation in another direction and possibly soothe the woman’s probable distress, he decided to ask her a few questions.
“So... Hmmmm... Ma’am? What’s your name?”
She turned towards him and smiled, like she felt sorry for the poor bugger. The smile was dark and drooling with eager vengeance.
“My name is Mohini...”

By  Yoshith Perera